Mother's Day Anguish and Breakthrough

Happy Mother's Day to all the mommas out there!! :D I have to admit it has been a bittersweet day for me. I have been dealing with this inner turmoil I've been having about well, not having any children.  I just found out a few weeks ago that I have premature menopause.  I wanted so much to believe I was pregnant all the way until the day of my sonogram.  I procrastinated going because of memories of my past one. Instead of seeing my lifeless child, I saw complete darkness. I honestly can't say which felt worse.  What I do know is that I thank my Father God for giving me His Son, Jesus Christ!!! He gives me Hope and Reassurance daily!  If I didn't have Him in my life, I would have completely given up so many times.  He has shown me that this life is temporary and that the next one is where all the really good stuff happens.  With Him I know that my first child is waiting for me.  I didn't get to know the pain of child birth but the pain I did have is enough to appreciate having a child in my arms.  I haven't been able to yet but I will have an eternity to never let go!  Only God knows why I can't have children, whether it's because of His Will or because that thief satan is futilely  trying to rob what's rightfully mine.  Either way I know, trust and praise my Heavenly Father to help get through this.  After hearing just in the past few days, of all the horrible things being done to so many children, it has caused a burning anger in my heart! Part of my turmoil was frustration of so much awful in gratitude for their lives but not any more. I have come to the conclusion that I am going to do something about it and turn that anger into a Righteous anger.  I thirst for justice for the children in this world and I pray that God will give me the Wisdom and Strength to make a difference.  The enemy the devil hates children because of how much Jesus loves them.  I remember when I was younger I would always have dreams of hiding , trying to protect or searching for a baby and I never knew what they meant. Maybe that's part of my purpose, as well as making sure my loved ones get saved.  Slowly I can see my life starting to come into focus and I am starting to get a grasp of what God has planned for me.  On the agenda is teaching the Gospel to my kids at church, taking the Gospel to my kids in the Dominican Republic, then fostering and adopting lots of kids of all ages for the rest of my life!  I have learned that we are all God's adopted children and whether they would have been from the womb or not makes no difference.  Everyone wants to be and deserves to be loved, especially children.  I thank You Father in advance for entrusting me with the lives of Your children, AMEN.

Psalm 113:9
He settles the childless woman in her home as a happy mother of children. Praise the LORD.

SPRING IS ON ITS WAY

If it seems like you're stuck in these cold, dark days of Winter know that you won't stay frozen here for long. 

SPRING IS ON ITS WAY!

The sun is still shining and it gives us hope, a glimpse of the lovely Spring days.  Those are the days when everything grows, when the seeds we planted begin to bud. Even the seeds that seemed to be planted during strife will eventually blossom into something beautiful to behold.  The ice will melt, the clouds will part.  The sun will shine and warm your heart.

 So when its cold and gloomy just keep in mind, SPRING IS ON ITS WAY!!

Isaiah 60:1

“Arise, shine, for your light has come, 

   and the glory of the LORD rises upon you. 

Isaiah 61:11

The Sovereign LORD will show his justice to the nations of the world. Everyone will praise him! His righteousness will be like a garden in early spring, with plants springing up everywhere.

Hosea 6:3

Oh, that we might know the LORD! Let us press on to know him. He will respond to us as surely as the arrival of dawn or the coming of rains in early spring.”